i dont know what is it or why is it that is happening to me
its happening to fast and im too slow to catch up.
everything is a BOOM.there.my headache hasnt healed.
ill prolly die of some tumour growing in my head.
took a normal panadol from dianne after recess,
the took another one from jill after assembly.
what that freak pill does is to stop your pain for a minute or two,
then the pain comes back to you and you wont
even notice it.its was fucking painful!
nothing.NOTHING seems to me going my way.the person i thought i could start trusting turned out to be just another friend.who couldnt give a shit about me.
owells.what was i expecting anyways,i knew all this from the start.its not surprising.it was just.disappointing.

-denise is stepping down on sat.
-i have to hand up some freaking f&n essay question tmr.
-i have this pathetic jr that refuses to bring her own stuff and doesnt turn up regularly.
-judyleong is breathing down my neck again.
-ss test in weeks.
-my mom's crazy moments are back.for the n'th time.
-my headache just refuses to heal.i shall just pop in 2 extra ones.
-im fcuking broke.
-i dont think by not replying,ill be able to forget you.
-im starting to stress over accts.
-my jogging plans were thwarted by the sickening rain just now.
DAMNIT.im a fat ass.i need to lose those damned fats fast.
-performance on sat.dont even talk about it.
omg.im such a cynical person i realised.
im losing them. ):



N, 10:42 AM



ohgoodness.i think ive grown addicted to this term.
school was quite okay.
i tried not to doze off during biology.
and i did it. (:
then had the dental thing.
im scheduled to have my appointment
during september.how far is that!

the power of love.
miss charmaine yeo.NEVER ate at a coffee shop!
MY GOODNESS.power of love.i just needed to
say this one more time. :D
see this is how things work when her blahblah
is not ard :
we go and call her blahblah,then she takes the
whole 3 minutes she have to talk,making the people
behind her so angry.
then we walk to the interchange,
and tried to think what to eat.
so she suggested her coffeeshop
where her blahblah bought her food for her.
then we sat down at her blahblahs favourite table,
and i gotta serve princess charmaine by helping
her order food,buy her drinks and help her
take the black soy sauce!
how fortunate is she!she has her friend to serve her
when her blahblah is away at training.
and ohmygod.she has so many sweetsweet memories to share.:D
and she told me some digusting shit about some people.
just how irritating can they get.

then after lunch,we walked back to her addicted rotiboy,
and she said she got herself addicted to rotiboy.
i was thinking i was someone else.haha!
so yeah then we saw some marist people.
thats about it.
now i have a damned splitting headache.
and i have not enough sleep.
so im so pissy and irritated.
you.are making me life so difficult.
why.just why do you have to do this.


N, 12:02 PM



im SUPER SUPER sad okay.
ytd at this time,well i was OVER the moon.
talk about mood swings.
)))))):

band.had boring sectionals.
i dont know why they made us do it.when its all the pieces we played bfore.
well most of them.
and then had combined.it was bloody tiring.
idk how im gonna hang in there on sat.
under the hot,unrelenting sun.ARGH.
OH.the book i bought on sat is still unread.
what a waste.
anyways. i do not like that mrs seehow.
haha she was sucha loser.
when we ran faster than she expected,
she made us ran again!
then,to show off her counting skills,
she counted 31 pushups!
and i was SO UNLUCKY.
cause we freaking played rugby.
and i freaking hell fell.ON MY KNEE.
so what comes next?the damned pushups!
so!i had to do it on one knee!
how pathetic was that! and booon,
my oh so caring chiobu number.1,
had to hit it at lovers johns slience!
my goodness!but when you touch it,
like out of the blue,
the whole patch of my blue black,is numb.
so i dont feel pain.
ha,i see you breathing a sign of relief right!KNEW IT.HAHA
tmr, theres chinese.my goodness.i dont even have the book yet!
and we are supposed to do the damned cloze passage thing to 20?
my goodness!i hate chinese!but you see.her lesson can sleep.aha
i hate my skin.i should change it soon.
okay.i shouldnt be so happy.
because he came online and didnt reply my msg.
)):
talk about an unlucky day.
i've just been there.

N, 1:49 AM



IM A HAPPY GIRL.
for that im going with boooon to school.
thank HIM booon.
not me.HAHAAHAHAHA

26 JUNE 2005.
I LOVE THIS DAY.((:
who says only couples can have anniversary.

N, 12:36 PM


now that booon has reminded me of the tys.
i realised i brought it to band and she didnt come!
i go throw away ah. hahahah
she loves calling me mrs yong-yong.
and i like it that way! hahah now i gotta bring it to school tmr!i should have left it in the band room yesterday la.stupid me.

hes back hes back.
but!aiyah sad news la.
i have MANY rivals.LOL.
okays i wanna go watch drumline.
that guy is erm.hot.hahahah!
i havent seen my seventh floor neighbour
for a longlonglong time.
hm.i wonder where is he.

N, 4:23 AM



25th june 2005.
no im not trying to say you dont know what date it is today.
im just trying to express how much i love this day.
ahem booon ahem!hahah.

sec one orientation todayphotos are in the profile area.
i didnt know it was a surprise kinda thing.
until our dearest germaine told us.
im being so nice because she didnt catch jo pay using her phone.
she was so nice today.well.not mean. HAHA.
booon that ass had CRAMPS.
yeah i believe you with all my heart and soul. :D
nicole didnt come too.so when we had combine,jo pay had to play almost everything.so poor thing.hahah.

took alot ALOT of pictures.
taytays camera alone took like 156 shots!
ate alot.my fishball business aint doing well.
cause it was boiled ones.AHAH aiyah my mom
was lazy to fry it and so was i. ):
anyway.combined was so damn tiring.
really really tiring.
i have a feeling im gonna fall sick again
after the borders thing.
freak it la. ARGH.after band went to eat at the basement foodcourt.decided to buy the super gigantic rojak.5bucks.we were the center of attention.ok la not us.but emili.haha she was this small little girl carrying this huge plate of rojak.mango without booon tasted alil sour.sshhh dont let hear this.LOL.ok i gotta go bathe.and then finish up at least physics and english.i seriously dont think im gonna do chinese.maybe tmr when im done with EVRYTHING then i will um thinkaborrit.(:i still have alil maths left and um.2 biology papers minus off the front page cause i did it already.HAHAoh trust me.noelle the great can complete it. JAMIE,if youre reading this,im sorry i cant go tomorrow okay!REALLY REALLY SORRY.do your best okay!ill be watching you from somewhere else.(((:all the best and jiazhi and i loveyoooooo.




N, 12:38 PM



i ran again today.from today onwards.i cant eat junk no more.
cause my stupid timetable has pe written all over it for monday.
so first day of school, weight taking!
man this is so irritating.

booooon is really bored.her pianos at 11.
shes only on her way NOW.shes DOOMED. :D
going town with my cousin later.abandoning boooon.HAHAH
that cousin of mine!shes so determined.hahah
i almost gave up running.
but it was damn shiok.i ran one more round than last friday.
haha like that makes any difference.
oh did i mention,i love my usb cable.
cause now i can have my cutsie j*****'s favourite dunks in my phone.
AAHHAHAHA im such a freak right.owells.
that overaged friend of his,GO AWAY!
hahahahah.
ok i gotta go find clothes.
if not.im gonna get scolded.
TA.

N, 2:24 AM



all past memories flashed back to me just now.

-how we did my maths over the phone at midnight.
-how i used to wake you up in the late mornings with my phone calls and we will talk till you reach for tuition.well,not excluding that you had to have lunch, on the phone.
-how you snatched the phone away from your friend and he said you were 'defensive'.
-how you sang to me.haha.
-how you whined with me.
-how afraid i was when i thought my mom was gonna call you.
-how you would always let me have my way.
-how i always called and say goodnight.
in conclusion,you rocked.((:
i hope youre not reading this.because then you will know who im talking about.

but you see.now that smiley face,wld be for my eyecandy!
AHHAA my cutsie j*****.((:
but aiyah.hes away.abroad more like it.
and soooooooo many people know him!
this is a damn uncensored entry.
hahah.
so anyways.today:
met boon.went school.played her stupid drums.went j8.see shoes.went eat.see shoes.walked around.SEE SHOES.then FINALLY,went home.
we were two pathetic lonely and bored people.
played 2 people mahjong.then played uno.then played cards.then ate keropok.then wanted to prank call.but dont know who to.then left for pearly.
then bought my dumpling noodles.(yums!!)
DONE. :D
im a happy girl.cause i saw my hot seventh floor neighbour.
hes REALLY hot.haha.(((((((:

N, 10:07 AM



im gonna start supporting man utd soon.(:
i have a good reason to do so.
but dont ask me why.

jea is so lag i swear.
she still wanna watch mr and mrs smith!
when the world is done watching alry!
we shall try our luck tmr.
WAIT,did i say that i was going?
HAHAHAHA
i hope jeannie tan is not reading this.

my eyecandy.* (:

N, 6:16 AM



we could always hold on to this
one special thing we share.
but it would be too much for us to bear.
*we both know,its better if we just let it go.

my hardworking uncle and i.
managed to fix my usb cable!
YAY.after sooooooo long.
cant transfer the songs though.
i saved my taufik.you know,he aint that hot.
but when he sings,it just melts me.(:
so.i like taufik.
and his album pictures.are drool-worthy.
haha yeah la.i know im behind times.

me and my mom.it just feels so weird.
i feel as though i never knew her.
its just so.heartbreaking. ):
nowadays shes been so down and low.
and her birthday barely passed a week.
and what did that fugger do?
NOTHING.
omg.i cant blog already.

N, 2:51 PM



exercising is really something lazy people dread
doing and yet complain-less after doing.
now i feel so.um exercised.hahaha some fugger is freaking calling me now
hello!it is so bloody irritating.and when i picked up he was so fierce.
fcuk you la.

one more week.and its the dreadful schooltime.
but actually.im not really dreading it la.
ok maybe i am.haha i dont know if i make any sense.
one month.FUNNY AH.
congratulations then.-cynically.
HHAHAH.

N, 3:34 AM



just what was i thinking.
tell me.how silly can i get.
to think that it its gonna be possible.
no.i had to be so dumb.
idiotic in fact.
stop the torture.youre tearing me apart.
you gave hope one minute and snatched it away the next.
i hate it.

N, 9:40 AM



God didnt send you down to throw tantrums.
so if you would stop sucha bitter man,
you would find that you would be a happier person.
and maybe,more friends.which is prolly what you need
MOST now. i feel for you.

finally back!gonna get use to blogging once again.
did serious surfing today.
haha.im feeling moody these days.
but i feel free.no, i feel clear.and fresh.
its just those piles of homework.
they never finish. xD
alrights.i have alot to update since
ive been gone for like 4 months.
will do so tmr.or the next.
ta.

N, 12:09 PM


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N, 2:13 AM

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